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Hey up all.

I'm changing my journal back to blurty.

I suppose I can use both.
Coz I really like those fluffy lil dudes at the bottom of my entries and I lik the bats on blurty!!!

www.blurty.com/~thelever

Well....

I got home from 6th form, went in my room and got changed, as I was soaking wet, thanx to the hail stones and rain that fell while I was waiting for the bus.

I then went into the kitchen, and sat down at the table.
There was an envelope addressed to me, with 2 Good Charlotte Badges in it - wooo hooooo!
Then my mom went into this plastic bag and pulled out something, and hid it behind her back.
She knows how much I love the movie "THE CROW", so she bought me it on DVD, I already had it on video, so I'm giving the video to Molleh.
Mom is gonna see if she can find The Crow: City of Angels on DVD - that was a good follow up, although no one, and I mean no one can match Brandon Lee.
She also said she's gonna get me Nightmare Before Christmas on DVD too, as well as Lord of the Rings: Fellowship of the Ring and Lord of the Rings: Two Towers - woooo.

Mom has also ordered Silverchair - Freak Show for me at the local record shop - how cool.

I've also made a new friend.
My mom knew her because she is her catalogue lady. I turned round while eating my dinner and said "OH WOW YOUR HAIR IS SO COOL", it was bright red.
She said she usually has it in spikes.
At the end of the month we are going to the gig I mentioned earlier on Jan 31st and a few others. Also I may being going to Kerrang Download this year, with her and her son and a few others in a mini bus-ohhhh yeah, that will be so much fun!

I'm gonna have a mass clear out at the weekend, of all the junk I don't want anymore, and clothes I never wear - that's alot then, and the shoes- loads then!! then I'm gonna chill out and play my playstation and listen to Silverchair or Sugarcult. I think I'm gonna listen to Silverchair <----- THEY RULE BY THE WAY, AS WELL AS GOOD CHARLOTTE!!!

Molleh just sent me a photo of Billy and Paul from Good Charlotte, and some random dude who looks like Avid Merrion in a car, and Billy is sitting in the same position as I would sit when a car I'm in is standstill.
OOOO I CAN DRIVE THIS YEAR - SWEEEEEET

I'm gonna go now, and ring Molleh, and watch the crow, or maybe Bullet Proof Monk, or Pirates of the Caribbean (tooo tempting) or the Good Charlotte DVD..... AHHH screw it I'll watch them all!!!

Love
Zara
xxxxx

Current Mood: bouncy
Current Music: Silverchair - World Upon Your Shoulders

Soz for the delayed update, I was busy.

WOOOOHOOOOOO THE LOCAL GIGS HAVE STARTED UP AGAIN.

There is one on Jan 31st, Feb 12th, feb 15th and feb 20th, 2 days b4 my birthday, wit wit wooo.

My m8 holly has just brought some site for a goth band called cinderella, it's www.cinderella.net, so I guess I'll be off to look at it!!


I'll update again later!


Love

Zara
xxx

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Sugarcult - Start Static (album)

Well I dunno what the hell happend over night, but suddenly everyone wants to talk to me, people want to be my friends.
It's kinda annoying when everyone wants to know where you got your New Rock boots from and how much they cost, but hey, they like them.

Some of the younger years in the school I'm at (6th form is in a school ground) wants to talk to me, ask me about music I listen to, and read the badges on my bag, and tell me that Winnie the Pooh looks good with his nose, eyebrow and lip pierced, and covered with badges and writting. I thought every preppy girl thought pooh bear was cute, and that I'm evil for defacing him - it's only a bag lol!

Yesterday, people hated me, didn't want to know me, and really upset me and today, they are like awww Zara or Billy (as that's my nickname coz of my crazy admiration for Billy Martin of Good Charlotte) can we see your bag, read ur badges, sit with you, talk to you, and all that crap!

Did some pixie come along and thump everyone on the head with a stick full of pixie dust?

Some kid on the bus this morning was like, "OMG UR BOOTS, THEY ARE SOOOOOO COOL, YOU LOOK SO GOOD, I LOVE UR STYLE, I WISH I WAS LIKE YOU", and then hugged me, what's that all about.
I mean thanx for the comment but was there any need to actually hug me, lol bless.

Some people I think have realised I don't care about anyone's opinions of me. I dress how I want, act how I want, and say what I want within reason.

Right it's recess, then I got business Studies for an hour, then I'll be back to update at lunch.
I might get my mom to pick me up lessons 7 & 8, coz I got 2 free lessons then, with nothing to do!!

I gotta go speak to someone as well.

Peace guys

I'M LOVED

"BOUNCING OFF THE WALLS AGAIN"

Zara
xxxx

p.s. I emailed Marko from Sugarcult, saying how I wasn't going to listen to Bouncing off the Walls as I might be tempted to actually bounce off the walls in 6th form, and as the 6th form block is only a temporary built buliding, then it's not wise. I'm listening to Bouncing off the Walls coz I'm so flippin happy today!!

OH CRAP I FORGOT MY MONEY TO BUY LUNCH, oh well.
I'm gonna email Tim from Sugarcult at lunch.

Ya'll check my site out: www.maxpages.com/followme

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Sugarcult - Bouncing off the walls

IT SUCKS SO FAR

I had an argument with my mom this morning, she was moaning about my hat saying it makes my face look 'fat', thanx.
Then she was saying how I must hate her and my dad, and I said no, then she said that I do, beacuse of the way I answered back to her about my hat saying I'm wearing it to keep my head warm, it was really cold and windy early this morning.

The other people at school couldn't give to shits about anyones feelings, but I have decided to go on mute today- where I don't speak to anyone, so therefore they can say what they want about me, and I'm acting like I don't care, It's working.

I text my mom earlier and she hasn't text back, and she don't need credit to text as she has a contract phone, what the hell.

OH MY HELL I can't go home till 3.30pm which is when college finishes, which totally sucks!!

The other people next door are listening to preps music - Justin Timberlake and crap like that.

PLAY SILVERCHAIR I DEMAND SILVERCHAIR!!!!!!

I been sorting out a cd that I'm sending to Steve with the local bands in my area for him to play on his radio show if he wants to, I should have it done by the end of the month, hee hee....ok beginning of February.
It's my birthday next month *coughs* FEBRUARY 22ND *coughs* ya'll have to remember that ok!!!

I guess I better go email a few people, then see if I can find my friend Rich, I need to talk to him!

OH MY HELL THEY ARE LISTNEING TO SOME FORM OF ROCK MUSIC IN THE ROOM NEXT DOOR *slaps self* am I hearing things-omg!
Kinda reminds me of the time I walked past that room, and Girls and Boys by Good Charlotte came on the radio, and I just sat in that room, watching everyone in there sing-a-long to it, and bob their heads around, it was funny, I have to admit! I wish I had had a video recorder, it would have been something to look back on, preppy kids who hate that music singing a-long to it!!

I'm gonna email a few people.
I'll update later when I get home tonight!!

Pirate Freak
xxx

Current Mood: blah
Current Music: Silverchair- Frogstomp album

Ok my life doesn't have much of a meaning. It's pointless, my life sucks.
All the guys think I'm ugly - they're right I guess. No I don't guess I know they're right.

I'm losing alot of the people I consider close friends, or people I can talk to.
I think I just lost Molleh!

I'm not gonna be able to live without her.
Oh what have I done.
I'm so stupid.
U konw when you say something you wish you never said, thats kinda the feeling I have right now.

I can't live without Molleh.
I got Steve and Molleh as my only real friends, well I guess now I only got Steve.

On another note, me and Steve both like Ninja Turtles, I've love those cool turtles since I was little. Oh how I miss seeing them *goes to find some videos to order*
I've also decided that I'm gonna stay by myself at college - I went with the "popular crowd" for a few days and all they do is bitch about anyone and everyone - boring!!
Ah being alone to listen to the music you enjoy and do the things you want is great!

I got a gig to go to at the end to the month, then 2 or 3 more next month - yayness.
It's my birthday next month wahey!!!!

I'm listening to Tomorrow by Silverchair, molleh told me to listen to it when I was crying to her on the phone - I think thats the second time I've cried to her on the phone!!
It's making me feel better. For those who don't know it's from the Frogstomp album (stamps on molleh's green frog, that she left here, with no toes *evil* - remembering he time molleh stamped on the frog making it leak even more over my bed *it was full of water* and then stamping on it everytime she said Frogstomp)

I was listening to Running up that hill by Placebo earlier, kinda thinking that both me and Molleh ahve had to climb a hill to get where we are now. IF ONLY GOOD CHARLOTTE HAD COVERED IT, coz if it wasn't for Good Charlotte or each other we wouldn't have reached the top of that hill today, all the evil people are still at the bottom, there may be a few at the top, but there are none down the other side.


MOLLEH I'M SORRY, AND I NEED YOU GIRL!!

Current Mood: good
Current Music: Tomorrow - Silverchair

Well it's all gone wrong!

So far, i've been so depressed it's unbelieveable!

Last night, I was on verge of ending it all.
I suddenly realised I'd been putting on this fake smile for everyone, and laughing when I was sad, just so no one would know how I was feeling, then last night it all hit me, and my emotions just came out.

I have Molly, Sal and Rich to thank for helping me out, and a chat that I had with Steve a few days ago when I was depressed.


On a good note, my band has another guitarist, so all we need now is a drummer, and we are sorted. Then we kinda have to think of a name.

Hmmm I think that's about it.

I'm going round Rich's tomorrow, to chill out, watch pirates of the carribean, eat chocolate and have a laugh.

Peace out

Pirate
xxxx


p.s. I want to be known as Pirate from now on!

Current Mood: depressed
Current Music: Silverchair - Neon Ballroom album

Well well well, what a day.

I woke up this morning, to my dad going - BREAKFAST as loud as he could.

I got out of bed, ate breakfast, then went back into my room and got changed.

I was bored ever since I got dressed.

I was thinking about playing my playstation, but then didn't want to, I've played all the games I got. I need to get some more!!

I went round a freinds house, and was even more bored- she hardly spoke to me. We had a tickle fight- she tried to cheer me up. I t worked for a bit, then I felt like crapp again.

I was telling Molly how I was feeling, and how I wanted to kill my self. She was getting upset, and told Steve.

I told Steve what was on my mind, and he made feel a bit better, telling me, that I got him and Molly, and that they are my friends.

I still feel a bit like crapp, I should be okay tomorrow.

I think I need to update this a bit more often!

I GOT PIRATES OF THE CARRIBEAN for christmas- yay yay yay.

It adds to my obbsession with Pirates.

Right I'm gonna go - I'm chattin to Steve, and sorting my msn out!

Peace and Love

Zara

xxxx

PIRATE FREAK

Current Mood: loved
Current Music: Silverchair - Freak

Coolios this is my 1st journal entry.

Well Zara or Billy is my name.
Choose one to call me.

I'm nucking futs, and this journal is to be linked to my site: http://maxpages.com/followme

Yayness.

Right i'm off

Laterz

xxxx

Current Mood: crazy
Current Music: Mest - What's the Dillio